The Day

Today is the day! It is the 13th February 2014! Which means it's my birthday and i'm officially thirteen! JYEAH. My thirteen resolutions are to always take care of my Imaan and health, (like i actually know how to take care of my health --) to be more feminine and stuffs.

Yep, feminine! You know what i'm so not feminine people say i'm "garang" like you know, all of the boys are frightened of me cause pernah satu kali, one time, i yelled at Azzam and the whole class terkedu like goes on a long silent. krik krik moment. Until our class teacher asks us to continue our work.

Okay, back to the topic. One of my thirteen resolutions are to ALWAYS writes a journal. So that i can save the memories forever, InsyaAllah, Ameen.

And, yeahh. Today is also the day my family and I will be going to Melbourne! I am so lucky, hahha. ("lucky". my birthday aren't even celebrated. but whatevs) I can't deny it that I'm sorta excited for it. (Okay, actually i'm trying hard to deny it) hehhe. i hope everything will be just fine, Ameen.

Well, just now, i told my besties about it. Actually i've told them a long time ago but maybe because of school and stuffs they can't remember it.. And when i told them again just now, they were like shocked or something?

I kinda "sad" cause they can't remember it. But then, one of them makes me so happy! She updated a status just for me. JUST FOR ME! Saying that i gotta take care and always keep in touch. Well, if i could, i would wanna tell her everything about it. hahah jk.

I'm so touched cause no one had ever actually made a post for me like that. I'm so grateful to Allah for bringing me a bestie like Add in my life. Thank you, Allah. Even though we had been through hard times, fight over and over again. But well, maybe that's what make it special :)

Today is my birthday, (i've told you earlier) but no one wishes me.. yet? Sorta sad but can't i be more logical? Like, it's Thursday's school day dude! Well whatever it is, I'm still happy though because of Add's post and also because yesterday a junior from my old school mentioned me in her blog's post :) FYI, our birthdate is the same :b heheh.

This is what she wrote in her blog, at the bottom of a post, "I just remembered that tomorrow is my birthday.. (and Aiman Humaira)" Like, seriously? She knew my birthday? I'm not that close to her. The only reason we knew each other is because our father are best friends since they are in Form 4.

Well, it makes me realize that all of this time, why did i bother with the people who hated me while there are people who still care towards me?

*sigh* Many things happened recently. I fought with one of my besties. She said that I'm a hypocrite or something? It's not that she said to me like that, but the way she wanna advice me was LIKE she's saying me like that.

TBH, it is true. It is true that I'm a hypocrite, sort of. But can't her advice me nicely? I'm just being me. Cause i know that, "It is better to be hated for what you are, than to be loved for what you are not." I'm just being me. Can't she just accept me for who i am?

But if i think positively, actually i guess it's not that she's trying to embarrassed me or to blame me or something. She's actually trying to lead me to be a better person. To be a better friend!

Owhh, Allah TT Thank you for opening my heart to accept this "harsh" by me advice, to think positively. I hope i'll be more positive after this, and i hope that my friendship with Sarah will be as "usual" again. I hope she'll accept me back again and i hope that i'll be a better person after this, Ameen.

Well, maybe that's all cause i gotta take my beauty sleep so that i'll be ready for tomorrow's adventure!